Up until this moment your life has been dictated by the idea that you must “become somebody” to be worth anything to your self or to anybody else. To become a worthy romantic partner, or to be accepted by your friends, family, co workers, etc. you believed that you had to achieve something special, or become better than everyone else at something. In school you were taught that you have a name, identity, and life story that is separate from everyone else, and that the quality of this story that you tell other people (and your self) is what indicates how “worthy” of a person you are.
But over time you began questioning the importance of this so-called “story”. You became more perceptive and aware of the world around you, your interactions with other people, and how other people make you feel. You began to realize that a lot of the people you know with great “stories” about their lives aren’t actually better or more worthy than you or anyone else. The only thing that they posess that you do not is the story that they get to tell other people about what makes their life so unique and special.
But who are we trying to impress with these stories about our lives? The vast majority of us exist in small circles – we have our friends, families, co-workers, extended families, and respective social groups. Among these circles we have diverse beliefs and backgrounds, but the one thing that all of these groups can agree on is that you had better have a good story to share about your life, and if you don’t then what is wrong with you?
This leads to a dilemma that you are becoming more aware of – is the story all that matters? And what are you sacrificing for the right to tell that story? Because as you have become more perceptive you may have noticed that a lot of the people who demand admiration for their unique stories are actually the least deserving of any form of admiration, and may (or may not) have done questionable things to earn the right to tell their story.
Perhaps then, you are gaining a sense of humility. You may have worked very hard and sacrificed a lot for the right to tell your own story. Your story might even be more impressive than anyone in your family or social circles. But you are also aware that your story isn’t what makes you special. What makes you special is so much more than a list of things you have accomplished. In fact, what makes you special is the Essence of who are, and something that can’t be translated into words. It’s just something that you know, like when you fall in love with another person and can’t really articulate why – you just know that you love them.
So when it comes to the universal importance of your own life story you may start to wonder “Since when did I have to earn my right to exist?”
“Since when did I have to prove to my self and other people that my existence is validated, based off of some story that I’m expected to recite about my life to every person who thinks they have a right to ask?”
And this is when your Highest Intelligence awakens. You know that you worked hard to curate a great story and to validate your existence. But you are also aware of the illusory nature of this story. And as you place less and less emphasis on the importance of this story – you see your life and the lives of those around you more clearly. You become better at discerning the intentions of other people and ultimately better at navigating the complexities of your own life.
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