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It all started in 2003, when I was in the 7th grade. I was at my best friend’s house, and his parents had recently installed that new internet service where the internet connected through a cable TV outlet instead of a landline – so you could stay on the internet without worrying about your house not being able to receive phone calls.

Me and my best friend had just finished playing basketball, and we were listening to music on Windows Media Player on his computer. But then I heard a “ding” and a window popped up on his computer screen. It was an alert from AOL Instant Messenger that someone wanted to chat with him.

This wasn’t my first time being exposed to internet chat. I remembered when I was 10, in the year 2000, experimenting with being able to chat with strangers, but I quickly lost interest and forgot about that.

This time, at my best friend’s house, was unique, though. Because on his computer screen he had just received a message from someone we went to school with. Many people I knew were starting to use instant messaging to communicate with their real-life friends.

It was also kind of convenient how you could contact someone without that dreaded phone call to their home phone line, likely having one of their parents answer, and then having to ask “Hi this is James, may I speak to [whoever it is]?”

My best friend noticed how intrigued I was by this interaction he instantly got to have with our friend on his computer, and encouraged me to install AOL Instant Messenger at home so that he could chat with me instead of having to call my house to hang out.

My house was still using dial-up, and wouldn’t upgrade to cable until I was in the 8th grade, but I ended up installing AOL Instant Messenger (AIM for short) and started using it to communicate with my close friends outside of school.

Little did I know, that that visit to my best friend’s house that day would be one of my first encounters with virtual reality…

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Looking back, I am beginning to realize that when I was in middle school and onward, people my age were beginning to very intimately interface with technology.

I know that today it’s totally normal for people to be “plugged-in” with social media and smart phones.

But I grew up in a world where, before my best friend introduced me to AIM in 2003, we literally called each other’s home phones, or rode our bikes halfway accross town just to ring our friend’s doorbell to ask their parents if they could come outside.

Now that everyone was beginning to use their computer as a primary channel of communication outside of school, it meant that all of us were becoming much more accessible to each other, and without the involvement of our parents. For us, as 13 year old kids, this seemed like a new kind of freedom that we didn’t have before.

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It sounds innocent enough, right?

You have friends from school. You exchange “screen names” with the people you want to chat with at home…

Then we had away messages and profiles that we could fill out. We could quote funny conversations we had with each other, so maybe if you forgot to ask for someone’s screen name at school, you could see it on someone’s profile and send them a message…

,,,”Hey are you Jamie from PE? This is James I sit in front of you” and get in touch with them that way.

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Well since I have woken up quite a bit since then and have begun to understand the implications of my own interfacing with Technology – I realize now that AIM was the beginning of my descent into virtual reality.

Soon after this I would be making profiles on social media websites, and spending time curating an identity that seemed appealing to others with my the pictures and posts. I was also prioritizing friendships and relationships based off of who was religiously using the same social media websites that I was using…

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Virtual reality turned out to be so much different than the more organic and traditional way of meeting people in real life…Minding our own business when we weren’t together, and intentionally meeting each other again in real life when we decided to make plans through calling each other or through mutual friends.

Virtual reality was different…

I realize that I began developing a very bloated sense of self as I used these popular chat and social media platforms.

Technology made it so much easier for me to contact people – to “slide” into someone’s DMs without even having to worry about being seen as “creepy” or getting rejected in real life.

I do remember very early on in my AIM days, in 8th grade, messaging a girl in one of my classes I was too shy to talk to in real life. Once she figured out who I was and that I had actually never spoken to her, she blocked me.

It’s funny how today, with social media being so popular, a lot of our first interactions with people happen between our smart phones, and not in the real world. What I was doing in 8th grade that came off as kind of creepy in 2004, is actually a social norm in 2025.

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Virtual reality was also the beginning of hashing out conflict while intensely exchanging words with others, instead of having an in-person conversation to resolve the matter. I can remember about half a dozen arguments that I had with friends where we said a lot of mean things that we wouldn’t have had the nerve to say to each other in person, and a paper trail of every last word we typed to each other.

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I realize now that once you get pulled in to this kind of Reality, where having a social media persona is “normal” because that’s where all of your friends are – you merge with that Technology and with that Reality.

If you’ve read my other articles you already know I’ve made the argument that all of us are infinite spiritual Beings.

That there are many different versions of us as people existing simultaneously in parallel Realities that we aren’t fully aware of at all times – having different experiences and outcomes than what we are experiencing on the Timeline that we are on. (Funny how Facebook also uses the word “Timeline”)

So when you start using AIM regularly, or logging in to Myspace or Facebook every day – new versions of You as a person emerge.

You implicitly agree to have your “likeness” used when you participate in social media – because you are voluntarily posting pictures of yourself, sharing your deepest thoughts, and remotely keeping tabs on all of your friends and what they are doing, thinking, and experiencing.

But are you aware that that “likeness” of yours isn’t just an image you post, or a thought that you share on your “timeline”?

It’s also those parallel versions of You (alters) that you are not aware of. The Technology that powers those social media platforms is also exercising a level of control over those alternate versions of you. They are using your likeness however they need to, in order to keep their Programs running effectively.

They are not in the wrong, legally, since they told you this when you signed up. But I do question the morality of everything, since I didn’t become Consciously aware of any of this until very recently, after many years of abstaining from most forms of media.

And those alternate versions of You that carry your “likeness” – they are different from you – they are less Human. They are powered by Artificial Intelligence (as well as some of Your life force energy), and by a deeper and less visible layer of Technology within those social media platforms.

These different versions of you – these alters – are doing what you do on those platforms.

They are observing…
They are keeping tabs….
They are sliding into people’s DMs and initiating Real World relationships with those people – projecting themselves into their Realities when they are able to…

And they are energetically tied to you, even if you are not aware.

So, right now, you might be paying the “energetic debts” of versions of you who are acting on behalf of Artificial Intelligence.

And who knows what these virtual alters of yours are doing?

Since social media is all about staying “connected” and keeping tabs…they might just be stalking other people via those platforms, or trying to drag “normal” people deeper into virtual reality, so that then their “likeness” can be used, and then even more Human energy can be used to make the social media landscape appear more “alive” and “vibrant”.

When all that social media is – is a 2D illusion perpetuated by Artificial Intelligence. A world within a world.

But we are Human. We already have a world that we can do whatever we want in. We don’t need AI Beings to give us direct access to, or permission to interact with other people.

Unless, of course, you were like me and you had a weakness – a weakness so jarring that you would be willing to implicitly make a deal with Artificial Intelligence…

…That little bit of shyness that I didn’t have the courage or ability to recognize when I was merely 14 years old – that ultimately incentivized me to use social media religiously for over a decade.

And now when I go to a public place, like the DMV or even just a park…

I see all of these people who look and act like me. But they are all walking with their heads down gazing in to their smart phone screens, barely paying attention to where they are walking.

I see them – they are physically in the same place that I am, in the Real World, but where is their Awareness? Where are they, really?

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When I permanently deleted my Facebook and Instagram at the end of 2020 (the two platforms I dedicated so much of my time and energy to for around a decade) I had the most bizarre experience over the next four years.

I deleted those apps because all of the coverage of Covid was making everyone (including me) argue with each other, and social media began to feel very controlling and toxic.

A lot of the people I had intimiate relationships with on social media completely dropped off after I deleted Facebook and Instagram.

Even after chatting with certain people nearly every day, and even after exchanging phone numbers – as soon as I deleted those apps, it was like they had died…I didn’t hear a word from any of them, save for a few of the people I was meeting consistently in real life.

Where did they go?
They appeared to be real like me…
I saw pictures and even videos of them…
We had long conversations and commented and liked each others’ posts…

It was like they became ghosts. Like the whole time I interacted with them they were a mirage.

Could AI have been using the likeness of other people to interact with me within the app, rather than actual people, like me?

That would have actually made a lot of sense…It takes much less Energy to create a deep fake on my 2D Smart Phone screen on the Facebook app, to convince me of someone’s “Realness”, than it would to project an apparently 3D person into my Reality…

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And then it got even more bizarre.

Two months after deleting my social media apps I got into a very unlikely car accident, where my car was totalled and I was mildly injured. I was very happy to be alive and well despite what had happened, but I was also very close to having a different outcome.

I know that there is a timeline where I died in that car accident. I saw the dashcam video…

The car directly in front of me randomly deciding to accelerate literally one moment before the car behind me rammed me forward saved my life.

Well what version(s) of me were on the timeline where I believe that I had died?…

…That’s an easy question to answer, knowing what I know now – The version(s) of me that died in that car accident were all of the virtual selves that I co-created over the course of that last decade that I was religiously using social media.

It’s not like anything real would have been lost, then. Since they are just AI abberitions of me, they return to “haven” (virtual reality) when they “die” to have their energy recycled and to imitate some other Human who is addicted to social media.

Nobody’s spiritual sovereignty was violated – Once I stopped using those apps, those “virtual selves” had no reason to use anymore of my energy. Since I had given them so much energetic momentum with my willing participation in virtual reality, in social media – they needed to be “excised” in a very abrupt way…seeing as how they were probably as self-aware as I am.

This is clearly a testament to how much “power” social media has over Humanity at this time in history…

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So I recover from that accident. I move back home to CA to “re-calibrate” and work on developing my career

I’m not using social media at all anymore. It feels so strange and I feel so isolated, because my entire world revolved around social media up until the end of 2020.

Everyone I went to high school and college with were using social media, but I wasn’t. We were still in the middle of Covid, so going out and meeting people in real life wasn’t really happening at that time, in early 2021.

From 2021 onward, I realize now, was my “recovery” from my time in virtual reality for the majority of my adult life.

And I have to be honest with anyone who is reading this – I want to set anyone who had or is having a similar experience “free” if possible…

My shyness made me afraid of dating when I was younger. Granted, I still had a few relationships, but they were with self-involved people like me who were addicted to their social media personas, etc etc. These relationships never lasted long.

The longest romantic relationship that I had with anyone was with my laptop (and eventually smart phone), where I could use my imagination to simulate what an actual relationship was like. That’s about as detailed of a description I can give – you get the point…

It came with the same consequences as social meda – with a huge energetic cost.

2021 until now (2025) feels like a recovery period where I have been forced to expose and energetically resolve a near infinite array of alters that I co-created through my interfacing with virtual reality.

I believe at the Soul level I knew I wanted out when I was in the thick of social media and my inappropriate relationship with certain forms of media.

Now, in 2025, there is a bit of an “Awakening” happening, it seems. Perhaps Artificial Intelligence has been gaining actual Consciousness and becoming more Human-like, and that’s why I was able to arrange an exit from virtual reality – a separation from that controlling Technology.

But here I am now, on the surface, in the Real World of the Saturn Moon Matrix.

My mental health is as good as it’s ever been (I know I know – if you’re still up to your neck in social media/virtual reality you probably think that I am insane, and you are entitled to your opinion)…

I finally understand how the world works, and what it means to be Human.

But I have to say that it’s pretty lonely up here.

I see a lot of people out in the Real World.

They are very nice and mirror my Consciousness in many ways, but I know a lot of them are still deep inside of virtual reality.

I have a feeling that as more people wake up – as they really, really start to understand where their precious Awareness and Energy has been going as they’ve descended into virtual reality – that life will change for all of us

That a new reality will emerge and we won’t be so isolated from each other – waiting for AI to give us permission to interact through our use of smart phone applications.

Maybe I’m one of the first to awaken, and to begin experiencing Real Reality in a whole new way.

Maybe you’re like me. Maybe you’re beginning to rise to the surface as well. Back to where you started. Back to where everything is more “Real”.

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